Feeling blue

This week marks 1 year since my 10th and final FOLFOX treatment, so I've been on the maintenance chemo of Avastin and Xeloda for almost a whole year. With treatment every other week, a year of that maintenance means 26 treatment days, that each start with blood work, sometimes involve an appointment with my oncologist and finish up in the treatment room to get the Avastin. For me, there's also been a couple of trips to the Cancer Care Clinic, and plenty of tests - CTs, MRIs, an ultrasound, etc. Is that all?

Imagine what I could have accomplished in all of that time instead. And in all of the time that I spend worrying, dealing with side effects and not sleeping. Cancer just sucks. Today is Dress in Blue Day to raise awareness for colon cancer. I hope that nobody that I care about ever has to go through all of this. And maybe I will have helped someone by raising their awareness to the symptoms. While my only "symptom" was anemia, I had no risk factors, and I was only 38, I'm an oddity.

But I am lucky to have so many blue friends today.