Believe it

• PET scan #2

Today started really, really, really early with a 6 a.m. PET scan. I find the technician to be super comforting and calming. The sitting and waiting... and then the actual scan... seem to pass with ease. Unexpectedly.

Word is that I will get the results of the PET scan on Monday during my appointment with Dr. R. However, this afternoon after work, I had to swing by the cancer center to get a Neupogen shot and I got to talking with my nurse. She pulled up the results and we read over the notes together. It sounds like really good news! I believe it but I can't believe it. I don't feel a real sense of relief though, maybe that will come on Monday. Or maybe with stage four, that will never come.

I wish I had the time and energy to share my full conversation with the nurse this afternoon. It was really quite funny. Being young and silly and I guess somewhat relate-able to the nurses, they seem to be so open to me, like I'm just sitting around talking with friends. But I guess you had to be there.