Since June 23rd, 2014

Friday, December 23, 2016

#winning

After I finished writing my previous post, I checked my e-mail...

and...

I had a notification from Guardant that my November blood test results were available. The results show that the amount of DNA in my bloodstream with my cancer mutation has DECREASED. It's likely a sign that my cancer is not as active, hopefully thanks to this past summer's Y90 and cryoablation procedures and my current chemo regimen of Xeloda and Avastin. It's not the ND (Not Detected) that this test measured last year when I was also having NED (no evidence of disease) scans but it's ZERO POINT TWO PERCENT. And that feels like a win. Just what I needed today. Guardant's testing is still new technology so it's hard to know exactly how to interpret the results, but I look forward to discussing it more with Dr. T the next time I see him (in January after my next set of scans.) Until then, it's Merry Christmas to me!


915 days

Today marks a weird day. Today marks 30 months (2 and 1/2 years) since my cancer diagnosis. Back in June 2014, it was easy to google my diagnosis, to read the statistics and to feel overwhelmed. But I've learned to understand that I'm not a statistic. I'm not the 70 year-old average stage IV colon cancer patient. However, that didn't stop me from blatantly asking one of nurses about the survival statistics last year. And she confirmed that they tell new stage IV colon cancer patients... on average... 2 and 1/2 years. Of course there are exceptions... and I'm shooting for exceptional.

Nestled all around the surgeries, the chemotherapy treatments, the radiation oncology procedures, the blood tests, the scans and ALL of the appointments, I have taken the trips, bought the (running) shoes and eaten the (cup)cakes. Life is short. That goes for everybody. There have been plenty of hard days and plenty of good days in the last 2 and 1/2 years, and I am thankful for every one of those 915 days. Last week I was busy running around and feeling confident about 2017, but this week I finished a weekly dose of Xeloda and I've been fatigued, nauseous and struggling. Hard days. Good days. I'll take 915 more please.

Thursday, December 15, 2016

Because he can

And this video...

http://ftw.usatoday.com/2016/07/espn-craig-sager-fight-against-cancer-video-espys-jimmy-v-award

#onewaytolive #unbreakable #mindovermatter #riseup #sagerlife #kleenex

Craig Sager

It's been an emotional couple of weeks in my on-line support groups. A number of people, very active in the groups, have recently passed away. It makes me sad when I go on-line to look at the groups' postings and none of the names look familiar; the voices that were the strongest when I first joined are not there any more. It makes me really angry at cancer.

And today I heard that Craig Sager passed away from leukemia. This past summer he was awarded the Perseverance Award at the ESPY Awards and I found his acceptance speech to be very inspiring (http://sports.yahoo.com/news/craig-sager-delivers-stirring-espys-speech-i-will-never-give-up-152655840.html). Especially these two parts:

“If I’ve learned anything through all of this, it’s that each and every day is a canvas, waiting to be painted — an opportunity for love, for fun, for living, for learning. To those of you out there who are suffering from cancer, facing adversity, I want you to know that your will to live and to fight cancer can make all the difference in the world. The way you think influences the way you feel, and the way you feel determines how you act.

“Whatever I might have imagined a terminal diagnosis would do to my spirit, it’s summoned quite the opposite: the greatest appreciation for life itself. So I will never give up, and I will never give in. I will continue to keep fighting, sucking the marrow out of life as life sucks the marrow out of me.

Tuesday, December 13, 2016

Brownie Tuesday, Brownie Tuesday

  • Bloodwork and treatment at Siteman West County
I woke up today feeling like it was Christmas morning! My friend D has been organizing a group to walk/run the Chicago Marathon next October with me (since I deferred my 2016 entry for health reasons) and today was the day for my friends to find out if they got accepted into the marathon. And so far TWELVE got in and only 1 didn't "win" the lottery and get in. So I've a runner's high going this morning, lots of adrenaline! When one of the nurses called me back to access my port, I was just babbling and babbling (normally I'm pretty quiet.)

In other news, the lab is running slow today and one test tube even had to be redrawn chair-side because of a labeling error BUT it is Brownie Tuesday. Win some, lose some.



Monday, December 12, 2016

I'm good

Tonight I played soccer with my friends against a team of people that were mostly half my age and most likely all cancer-free (although you can never assume anything.) About halfway through the game, we were up 4-0 and I found myself near their bench just in time to hear a little girl say, "they really aren't that good."

I mean, let's be honest, she's right. For me, it's about trying to stay active and run around a little. I'm a 40 year-old woman with stage IV colon cancer, being good at soccer is not high up on my list of priorities. Lately I've been concentrating on being good at getting through each day with a decent attitude while controlling the side effects of my disease and medications. When I slowly get out of bed tomorrow and get myself to the cancer center for chemo, I'll be good (and proud of myself).

I think BC Diane (before cancer) might have been offended by that kind of comment, but not this Diane. This Diane is still getting opportunities to be active and to play a sport that I love with the people that I love. (For various reasons, not everybody in my circle of soccer friends can still say that. So I count it as a blessing.) We all have things that make us happy (even when other people don't understand) and soccer is that for me.

(Why am I writing in third person there? It must be because it's late and I'm restless, but I'm good.) 




Monday, December 5, 2016

December 5th Fund

Somehow I didn't anticipate that doing random acts of kindness today in honor of a woman, a friend to many of my friends, who passed away earlier this year from breast cancer, would be so emotional. Although thinking back about it now, of course it would be emotional.

Thursday, December 1, 2016

Tutu to you too

Because sometimes you've had a few hard weeks and you're struggling mentally... but coming across old pictures of yourself climbing on obstacles, jumping over fire, crawling through ice cold mud under barbed wire and laughing with friends... reminds you that you have strength within (and support all around).

 

Wednesday, November 30, 2016

Avastin

I went back to the chemocare website, which is always a good source of information for me and I pulled the Avastin description too. Basically, Avastin is trying to prevent my tumors from growing new blood vessels (and getting larger). I'm telling you. Science. Is. Amazing.

From: http://chemocare.com/chemotherapy/drug-info/avastin.aspx

How Avastin works:
Monoclonal antibodies are a relatively new type of "targeted" cancer therapy.  Antibodies are part of the immune system.  Normally, the body creates antibodies in response to an antigen (such as a protein in a germ) entering the body.  The antibodies attach to the antigen in order to mark it for destruction by the body's immune system.  In the laboratory, scientists analyze specific antigens on the surface of cancer cells (target) to determine a protein to match the antigen.  Then, using animal and human proteins, scientists work to create a special antibody that will attach to the target antigen.  Antibodies will attach to matching antigens like a key fits a lock.  This technology allows treatment to target specific cells, causing less toxicity to healthy cells.   Monoclonal antibody therapy can be done only for cancers in which antigens (and the respective antibodies) have been identified.
Avastin works by interfering with the process of angiogenesis by targeting and inhibiting human vascular endothelial growth factor (VEGF).  VEGF is a cytokine (a small protein released by cells that have specific effects on the behavior of cells) which when it interacts with its receptors in the cell leads to new blood vessel formation or angiogenesis.
Note:  We strongly encourage you to talk with your health care professional about your specific medical condition and treatments. The information contained in this website is meant to be helpful and educational, but is not a substitute for medical advice.

Jagged little pill

So today's Xeloda prescription was the first one to arrive from my new mail order pharmacy (due to an insurance change). And when I popped open the bottle, the normally peach pills were... white.

I felt like I couldn't just take them without looking into it. Mistakes do happen, what if that's the wrong drug or not a safe dose for me. I'm picturing a big warehouse full of robots filling the orders... and robots can go rogue! I've seen the movies.

Anyway, it's just a different manufacturer so crisis averted. However, during my search I came across the below good description of how Xeloda works. I think sometimes people don't understand that there are hundreds, probably thousands, of chemotherapy drugs. And many of them do very different things. Science is amazing. If only my old biology teacher, Dr. Lllllllungo could see me now.

From: http://chemocare.com/chemotherapy/drug-info/Xeloda.aspx

How Xeloda Works:
Cancerous tumors are characterized by cell division, which is no longer controlled as it is in normal tissue.  "Normal" cells stop dividing when they come into contact with like cells, a mechanism known as contact inhibition.  Cancerous cells lose this ability.  Cancer cells no longer have the normal checks and balances in place that control and limit cell division.  The process of cell division, whether normal or cancerous cells, is through the cell cycle.  The cell cycle goes from the resting phase, through active growing phases, and then to mitosis (division).
The ability of chemotherapy to kill cancer cells depends on its ability to halt cell division.  Usually, the drugs work by damaging the RNA or DNA that tells the cell how to copy itself in division.  If the cells are unable to divide, they die.  The faster the cells are dividing, the more likely it is that chemotherapy will kill the cells, causing the tumor to shrink.  They also induce cell suicide (self-death or apoptosis).
Chemotherapy drugs that affect cells only when they are dividing are called cell-cycle specific.  Chemotherapy drugs that affect cells when they are at rest are called cell-cycle non-specific.  The scheduling of chemotherapy is set based on the type of cells, rate at which they divide, and the time at which a given drug is likely to be effective.  This is why chemotherapy is typically given in cycles.
Chemotherapy is most effective at killing cells that are rapidly dividing.  Unfortunately, chemotherapy does not know the difference between the cancerous cells and the normal cells. The "normal" cells will grow back and be healthy but in the meantime, side effects occur.  The "normal" cells most commonly affected by chemotherapy are the blood cells, the cells in the mouth, stomach and bowel, and the hair follicles; resulting in low blood counts, mouth sores, nausea, diarrhea, and/or hair loss.  Different drugs may affect different parts of the body.
Xeloda belongs to the category of chemotherapy called antimetabolites.  Antimetabolites are very similar to normal substances within the cell.  When the cells incorporate these substances into the cellular metabolism, they are unable to divide.  Antimetabolites are cell-cycle specific.  They attack cells at very specific phases in the cycle.  Antimetabolites are classified according to the substances with which they interfere.

  • Folic acid antagonist: Methotrexate. 
  • Pyrimidine antagonist: 5-Fluorouracil, Foxuridine, Cytarabine, Xeloda, and Gemcitabine.
  • Purine antagonist: 6-Mercaptopurine and 6-Thioguanine. 
  • Adenosine deaminase inhibitor: Cladribine, Fludarabine and Pentostatin.

Note:  We strongly encourage you to talk with your health care professional about your specific medical condition and treatments. The information contained in this website is meant to be helpful and educational, but is not a substitute for medical advice.