'Scuse me

• Bloodwork and treatment at Siteman West County

Deep breathe again

Things have a way of working themselves out.

Missing: neutrophils

• Bloodwork, appointment with Dr. T and treatment at Siteman South County

I got through my bloodwork and appointment with Dr. T so quickly this morning that my blood test results weren't even back yet when I was sent to the treatment room to get checked in.

Unfortunately, when the results came back... my neutrophil count was too low for treatment this week. That hasn't happened in awhile. So no Avastin today. And no Xeloda this week.

American football

Today I learned how to throw the perfect spiral. I also learned that my niece M can throw a lot further than me! Let's see what tomorrow brings. #thankfulweek #gobblegobble

#blanketlife

• Bloodwork and treatment at Siteman West County

Warm blanket heaven on a cold, dark and winter-y kind of day. It could only be better if I had ear muffs to cover up all of the political talk. #electionday

#hockeyfightscancer

Because hockey and my friend K help fight cancer with me.

Blame it on the rain

On fb today, I came across a video titled: Why Your Cancer Diagnosis is Not Your Fault.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=youtu.be&v=oM3TiAp5EFI

The woman in the video is the author of one of the first cancer-y books that I read after my diagnosis. I feel like I can relate to what she is saying because I've only recently stopped being preoccupied about the "why" in my cancer story... but it hasn't been easy. I've had to learn that obsessing about it does not do anything good for my soul. So I work hard to try and keep my mind in the present.

5-FU

Seriously. That name.

I finally got around to watching a CCA webinar from a couple weeks ago titled 5-FU from A to Z: What You Need to Know about the Most Common CRC Treatment.

I am currently taking the pill form of this drug in one week on/one week off cycles. I found the first 20 minutes or so of the webinar to be informative. Here's the link: http://bit.ly/2edRegy.

Caution

My next prescription of Xeloda has arrived.

Don't worry, be happy

• Bloodwork, appointment with Dr. T and treatment at Siteman South County

Bad news would never be printed on bright green paper, right?

Right! We talked with Dr. T and one of his fellows about last week's scans and they were SO HAPPY. I mean, REALLY HAPPY. My mind was having a hard time processing it because again I was ready for the step up to Folfori chemo. And I think he could see it on my face... so we went through his thought process carefully and he went over the studies that backed up his suggestion for me to stay with maintenance chemo at this time. So we maintain! I had to keep telling my face to "be happy!" because I don't think the message was getting through.